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Sunshine_Misery
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Name: Andrea
Country: United States
State: Alaska
Birthday: 1/1/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Swing dancing, chopsticks, and green pop cans
Expertise: Monkeys, pencils, and The Incredible Hulk
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
2/7/2005
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| Hello...
I know that no one reads this site anymore, but I still felt it was a little shameful for it to be the end of May and have my most recent post be from the middle of the school year, so I am updating at last.
Life is good here; making some new friends and trying to reconnect with some old ones, working a lot, and still procrastinating about unpacking and cleaning my room. It's not all roses, though; recently I've been having some trouble with a good friend of mine. He confessed to me a couple of weeks ago that he likes me, even though I'm in a very committed relationship of a year and a half, which my friend clearly knows. I told him that I was sorry he was put in that situation, but I couldn't offer him anything more than friendship, and since then things have been a little awkward but we've been trying to maintain friendship. Tonight, though, things kind of exploded; he said some things that really confused me and made me nervous, so I went to one of our mutual friends to try and get some clarification, and I told her some stuff he said about her that I probably shouldn't have said (I was panicked and not thinking clearly and just wanted some answers). She then confronted him about what he said about her, and he then got extremely pissed at me that I told her what he said! Basically it's a bunch of freshman drama that I could totally do without.
The bottom line, though, is that this friend who likes me bases his emotions and feelings off of the people around him and doesn't take any responsibility for them himself. He has a very obsessive personality and he fixates one one person for a while, and then moves on to someone else and fixates on them. When someone tells him something he doesn't like or doesn't want to hear, he gets angry at them or brands what they say as bad advice and stops listening to them. He calls/texts me a zillion times a day and the more he tries to get ahold of me and the more of my time he tries to occupy, the less time I want to give him and the less I answer his calls. I just don't like feeling hunted, and his obsessive personality makes me feel very hounded. I have a feeling now, though, that he's not going to forgive me for telling our other friend what he said about her and that he's going to start leaving me alone. As terrible as this sounds, I feel like that's the only way to get the point across to him that he needs to back off; everything I have done and all of my withdrawing from him haven't done a darn thing, so I feel like the only way out for me is for him to get pissed and decide not to talk to me anymore. I'm not saying I wouldn't be sad to lose his friendship, but I am saying that I am frustrated to the point where if that is the only way out, I will take it.
That was quite a rant; it feels better to have it all out, though. Why do these kinds of situations have to happen? Why is it that as soon as you're really good friends with a guy and everything is going perfect he tells you he likes you and messes everything up? That's happened a couple of times now and it really frustrates me. I just want things to stay good, not turn all weird; don't make this something bigger than just a great friendship! Geez...
Okay I'm going to bed now; maybe I'll post again soon, I dunno. Nobody reads this anywho, so this stuff is just for myself. I can type faster than I write, so I'd rather journal here than on paper. G'night!
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| I don't normally like math but in this case I'll make an exception.
Mountain Dew = life.
School = boring.
Friday = awesome.
Pizza = good (but it gets old fast).
Meijer = crucial for my existence.
Money = the devil.
Papers = the devil x 2.
My roommates = fantastic.
Snow = crap.
Bad weather = a great way to ruin plans.
Okay that's enough math for me. Time to go write a paper, aka the devil x 2.
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| Oh there's nooooo place like hoooome for, the holidaaaays... (yes I was singing)
Hello, all! I am now back from Grand Valley and enjoying all the
marvelous food there is around Mom's house that was never around
mine! lol Yesterday we put up our (fake) Christmas tree,
and today i'm going (real) Christmas shopping to finish up the rest of
my list; unfortunately, it's still a long list (boo) but I actually
have a little bit of money (yay) so it should even out...or that's what
I'm hoping...
So what's everyone doing for Christmas? I've kind of always
thought that people prefer to travel for Thanksgiving and then stay
home for Christmas; true? That's how we do it, anyway; we stay
home for X-mas and then go sledding after we eat (not right after,
that'd be asking for trouble). Anybody else got fun plans?
Jake, your plans need to include coming over here, cuz I haven't seen
ya in forever!! And anybody else who wants to show up, please
do! I got a new phone so I don't have everyone's numbers anymore,
but my number is the same so if you wanna go do something gimme a call!
K I think it's time for some breakfast; Merry Christmas,
everybody! Happy shopping, and be careful - there's a lot of
crazy drivers out there right now!
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| I wanna go home; I wish Thanksgiving was this weekend instead of next
weekend. I need a break, and some relief from the monotony
inherent in this time of the semester. I need to go home and
recover so I can come back and finish strong. And I can't wait to
get to Indiana and see all of my family!! I don't know if I can
wait for a whole nother week!!!!!!!
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| Things I Miss Most About High School:
Talking with Lia.
CJ's hugs.
Nikki's blonde moments.
Kacie's blonde moments.
Michelle's blonde moments.
(None of whom are blonde.)
Jake's cheese jokes (especially fingerprints).
Wil's The Cheat and old man noises.
Jason's "questionable" music selection ("Met a girl...").
Paul's sharp wit.
Matt's British accents and random Star Wars references.
Krista's grumpy days (we always shared those and I liked them).
Trying to play basketball with the Grochos (though always getting schooled wasn't that fun).
Freshman Prim playing ball with Missy.
Senior Prim cheering Sarah on at the climbing wall.
Working on yearbook with Mrs. Schaap.
Trading e-mails every twenty minutes with Mrs. Schaap.
Ashlee Faber and her goldfish (the unofficial class pet).
Everything about Ashlynn Lister.
Algebra class and trying to sidetrack Mrs. Wolthuis.
Parties at the Couliers.
Summers with Lia.
New York City and all the Grand Ledgers I met there.
The Jars of Clay concert and random hangout days with "The Clan".
Justin Schaap and his loudness.
Ryan's sarcasm.
CJ's piano.
Debating with Jake and Eric.
The Metrocard.
Basketball games.
You know, all those little things.
I miss those a lot.
And all those people, too.
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